Today I am so excited to share with you the first chapter from my upcoming mermaid book, What Coral Wants!
In case you missed it, here’s what this story is about:
Fake dating her real crush. What could go wrong?
What straight-A student and all-around good mergirl Coral Ballenato wants is to forget her longtime crush on her best friend’s older brother. Four years of pining from not-so-afar is more than enough. Moving on should be easy now that he’s swum off to college.
Until Zak Marlin comes home for a charity event, newly-single and begging her to be his pretend girlfriend for the week.
She should say no…but surely she can handle playing the role of Zak’s sweetheart. After all, she’s been dreaming about it for years. She just has to make sure her heart is braced for the inevitable end.
But when every minute they spend together makes her fall deeper and deeper for the merguy she’s always loved, how will Coral ever be able to move on when the week is over?
Now, let’s get on with the excerpt…
One
Friday afternoon
Forty-seven days.
It’s been forty-seven days since I last saw Zak Marlin.
That probably doesn’t seem like a long time. Less than two months, right? But before the day he swam off for orientation at University of the Western Atlantic at Desfleurelle, I saw him almost every single day for four straight years. Forty-seven days feels like a lifetime.
I’ve told myself to stop counting. Begged myself even.
Come on, Coral. Get your act together. Get over him.
Wasn’t four years of loving from afar enough? Haven’t I earned a break from thinking about him every waking moment?
Okay, not every waking moment. I have good grades, am involved in several extracurriculars, and help out in my family’s pearl business when they need me.
But whenever I have a free moment, my mind drifts to him.
Where is he right now?
What’s he doing?
Is he enjoying college?
Has he made new friends?
Does he get homesick?
I have no right to ponder these questions. At least no more right than anyone else at Queen Sirenia Academy. He’s not technically anything special to me. QSA’s star seaball player. My best friend’s older brother. Another mergirl’s boyfriend.
We’re friends, I guess, but nothing more. Never more.
You’d think I would have learned my lesson by now.
Big crushes die hard.
And believe me, I’ve tried to kill it.
Why am I telling you all of this right up front? We just met, and here I am spilling my deepest, darkest secret. (Seriously, don’t tell anyone. No one, not even my best friend knows. Because, you know, sister of said crush and all.)
Anyway, I’m telling you this because I want you to understand the full impact of what I feel when I float out of school on an ordinary afternoon and swim straight into Zak Marlin’s chest.
I’m not looking where I’m going. In a rush to get home, I speed around a corner and BLAM! Crush crash.
I know immediately that it’s him. In the same way a mermom knows her guppy’s cry from an ocean away. The instant my cheek connects with his t-shirt-covered shoulder, I know.
I want to laugh and cry at the same time.
His hands come up to catch me—or maybe to push me away since I, you know, just smashed into him. The heat from his palms sends a shiver all the way to the tip of my tailfin.
In a flash, I re-memorize everything about his face. The way his dark gold brows frown low over his kelp-green eyes. The way his curls wave a little longer because he hasn’t gotten a haircut since he left. The way his cheeks flush dusky pink—possibly because he just had a near-death collision with a speedy mergirl.
I take it all in because I’ve been in withdrawal for forty-seven days and I don’t know why he’s here or how long he’s staying.
A mergirl has to look her fill while she can.
“Are you all—” Zak’s concerned expression morphs into a grin. “Coral!”
Keep it together.
As quick as a mackerel evading a shark, I shove the lovesick version of myself down deep inside and replace it with the fun-loving-little-sister’s-best-friend character I’ve been playing for years. I’ve had so much practice playing this role that you’d think I’d start to believe it myself.
Not a chance.
The rest of the mer world might be clueless, but my heart sees through the facade.
“Guilty,” I reply with a perilously fake grin. “I didn’t know you were coming home.”
The blush in his cheeks deepens.
“I haven’t told anyone. It’s a surprise.”
“Does your family know?”
He shakes his head. “I needed to stop by school first.”
My heart dances at the thought that I know this secret, that I’m the first merperson to know that he’s home.
“What’s the surprise?” I ask.
He releases my arms and shoves a hand through his curls.
As chilly seawater rushes in where his hands had been, I shiver again—in a less thrilling way this time.
If I was at all capable of playing it cool, at this point I would think something smooth like, I totally forgot he was still holding them. But, let’s be honest, I have been acutely and painfully aware of every single instant of contact.
“Coach asked me to come,” he says. “He wants me to give a speech at the Give Back Game.”
I don’t miss the tiny tremor in his voice.
Despite his perfection in nearly every possible way, Zak has always been nervous about speaking in front of crowds. A public speaker he is not. He once faked sick to get out of presenting his science fair project.
The Give Back Game is about as much public as you can get.
Even though the team’s record has been awful since losing Zak, the crowd at this game—pretty much the most popular event of QSA’s annual Give Back Week—will be huge. Current students, faculty, alumni, and all their families will come out to support the team and donate to the school’s charitable foundation. The stands will be full.
No wonder Zak sounds nervous.
I try to sound as positive as possible. “Wow, that’s great!”
Maybe it’s unkind of me, but seeing this tiny weakness in him—this chip in the otherwise flawlessness of the great Zak Marlin—only makes me love him more. It makes him seem more…real.
“So you’ll be home all Give Back Week?” I ask, partly to distract him from the thought of public speaking, but mostly because I want—no, I need—to know.
Even though we’re technically friends, we’re not friends friends. It’s not like we’ve been exchanging message bubbles since he went away. Or that I could ask Zanzie about him without raising her suspicions. I’ve been in a Zak-related blackout.
“Yep, all week,” he says. “We’re on mid-semester break at school.”
Did my heart do a little dance earlier? Now it’s breaking into a complete flash mob routine. An entire week of him? My Zak-starved brain is ecstatic.
The only thing that dampens my joy is the little shadow that comes over his eyes. No one else would see it, but—like I said—I’m a little obsessed with the details when it comes to Zak. So I notice.
It’s not the same as his nerves about public speaking, either. It’s something different.
“What?” I float ever-so-slightly closer. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing.” He shakes his head, like he doesn’t want to discuss it. “It’s just…”
But maybe he does.
I hold my breath.
He rubs his hand over his face. “Angel and I broke up.”
“What?!”
Did I scream that out loud?
It feels like a tsunami just crashed into me and knocked the breath out of my lungs. Zak? Angel? Break-up? After two years?! I can’t compute this news.
“I mean—” I clench my hands into fists to keep from clapping in giddy joy. Bad form, that. “I thought you guys were practically engaged.”
The shadow in his eyes darkens a little. He closes them for a second, and when he opens them the shadow is gone. His mouth quirks to one side in a self-effacing grin that is #2 on my list of favorite Zak smiles.
I bite my lip to keep from grinning back like a fool.
“Not quite,” he says. “But I think everyone was expecting that. I guess Angel didn’t think the long-distance thing could work.”
All the water rushes back into my lungs at once.
It takes every last drop of my willpower not to shout, SHE broke up with YOU!?!!! Who in their right mind would dump Zak Marlin?
Angel must be insane.
Being the very good friend that I am—and not at all the girl who has been desperately in love with him for years and sees her first real chance at everlasting happiness finally within her reach—I nod sympathetically. I deserve a friendship award.
“I’m sorry,” I say, trying to make sure my expression matches my solemn words and not my exuberant thoughts. “Getting dumped sucks.”
He winces.
Maybe I shouldn’t have put it that way.
I don’t have much—or, you know, any—experience in dumpdom. With my emotions romantically engaged elsewhere, I haven’t exactly been participating in the QSA dating pool. But I can imagine getting dumped is a sore subject.
“My mom definitely thinks it sucks,” he says. “She won’t let it go.”
“What do you mean?”
Mrs. Marlin is like my second mom. Because my mom has to work so much, sometimes taking weeks-long pearl-hunting trips around the seven seas, I’ve spent a lot of dinners over the last few years sitting across the Marlin table from Zak.
“Mom’s convinced that Angel will change her mind,” he explains. “That we’ll be back together before winter break so we can go to the dance together.”
And just like that, my growing balloon of hope pops like a pufferfish who doesn’t know when to stop puffing.
Mrs. Marlin is right. A relationship like the one between Zak and Angeleria Hind doesn’t end just because someone goes off to college. They’ve been virtually inseparable since they first started going out two years ago. While other teen relationships were on and off again—and again and again—Zak and Angel (or Zangel, as everyone at school calls them) were immune.
I don’t know what Angel was thinking, but chances are she’ll change her mind.
As depressing as that is, I’m glad I realized it now. It would only get more painful the longer I let myself believe I might finally have a chance.
Coming back down to the seafloor before you float too high is easier than crashing back into the sea after soaring too close to the sun.
“Maybe your mom is right,” I suggest.
He huffs out an awkward laugh.
“Not you, too,” he says. “Ever since I told her, it’s like all she can do is imagine the little blond grandguppies she won’t be getting. She’s relentless.”
“When you put it that way…”
I think his mom is right about an inevitable Zangel reunion, but I also think that my loyalty is to Zak. Surely I can protect my heart and be supportive at the same time.
I give him a sympathetic smile. “As if you can do anything to change Angel’s mind.”
“Try telling my mom that.”
There’s that quirk-smile I love.
“That’s why I didn’t tell her I was coming home for Give Back Week. When she finds out, she’ll be nonstop.”
He presses his hands to his face, like he can’t stand the thought.
“You know what she said in her last bubble message?” he asks, dropping his hands away. He doesn’t wait for a response. “That I should pretend to see someone to make Angel jealous.”
“You don’t think it would work?” I ask.
It would definitely make me jealous.
He doesn’t hesitate. “No.”
“I bet it would work,” I say with a laugh, “on your mom.”
He frowns in confusion, wondering what I’m talking about.
“Pretending to date someone,” I explain. “It might get your mom off you back.”
And I bet it would make Angel jealous.
I beat myself up for making the suggestion as I watch a series of emotions play across Zak’s face. Confusion into understanding into consideration into—Oh no.
He flashes #4 on my list of favorite smiles. The big, broad one that means he’s got everything figured out.
The instant I see it, I know I’m in trouble. I wish I could reach out and grab my words back.
If only speech bubbles worked like message bubbles.
“You know…” He draws the words out, like he’s trying to coast his way into the sentence.
My stomach plummets. I find myself instinctively inching back.
“That’s not a bad idea.” He floats forward, closing the gap I just made. “What if we—”
No, no, no. This has to be the worst idea ever.
If I were any kind of romantically savvy, you might think I knew what I was doing when I suggested it. You might think it was some devious master plan. Convince Zak to fake date me—for his own good, of course—with the hope that the fake would fade away and we would just end up dating.
I wish I were that clever.
But I know me. And I know Zak and Angel. There is no way this scenario ends with anything but me crying myself into oblivion.
“Come on,” Zak argues. “My mom loves you. She’ll lay off the Angel stuff if she thinks we’re together.”
“I know, but—”
“Plus, it’s Give Back Week. We could go to everything together. I kinda hate the idea of going to all that stuff alone.”
I feel myself shaking my head.
I also feel myself considering the idea. Give Back Week is full of activities—the carnival, the big game, the talent show. How much fun would it be to go to those events with Zak?
And to go in the guise of boyfriend and girlfriend?
It would be the culmination of my every high school dream. Don’t I deserve that?
“It would be a blast. No drama.” He gestures in the water between us. “Just friends hanging out and having a good time. Like always.”
Like always.
The words echo in my mind like a shout into the Marianas Trench. Like always. Like always. Like always.
That’s when I know I can’t do this. Because as much as I want to spend every possible second with Zak while he’s home, I know that the emotional cost will be too high.
It wouldn’t be real. It would only be a matter of time before it comes to an end. Zak and Angel will be together again before he swims back to college, and I’ll be left even more heartbroken than before.
Which is why, instead of giving in to the desperate desire to agree, I say, “Hahaha, I could never pretend to be your girlfriend. It would be too…weird.”
As if the thought had never, ever, in a million tiny ways crossed my mind.
“You’re probably right. Dumb idea.” His mouth kicks up to one side as he shrugs it off. “Will you be at dinner Sunday night?”
I smile, only partly relieved that this whole horrible idea is over. Zak let that go way too easily. Maybe the thought of pretending to be my boyfriend actually was too weird for him.
If that doesn’t do wonders for my self-esteem, I don’t know what does.
Brushing off the ego-bruise, I answer enthusiastically, “Wouldn’t miss it.”
Saying no was the right decision. I know that.
But as we swim our separate ways, I can’t help wondering what it would have been like to pretend to be Zak’s girlfriend for a week. Did I dismiss the idea too quickly? Yes, it would hurt. But so does seeing him with Angel. Maybe the price would have been worth it?
I guess now I’ll never know.
If you want to find out what happens between Coral and Zak (spoiler: she changes her mind) then pre-order your copy of What Coral Wants!
And while you’re waiting for June 23rd, you might want to read my free story about how their story began in When Coral Dreams.
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